I learn to play it simplified.

You cannot be anything you want to be - but you can be a lot more of who you already are.


Wednesday, July 04, 2007

PS. I LOVE YOU
I have been reading this book titled 'PS. I lOVE YOU'.

The story is about this married couple, Holly and Gerry that many others envy.
Till Gerry was diagnosed with a terminal illness and soon passed away and how Holly had to cope with the death of Gerry. Lucky for her, Gerry left her a package of letters, instructing her to perform a series of unexpected task after his death. These task, though often difficult, were meant to help her carry on with her life. As well as with the help of her family and her friends, Holly manage to wobble, weave and joke her way towards a new life, even larger than the one she had been forced to left behind.

Its a touching story, and silly how i teared on the pages i've read.

Tearing has been easy for me recently.
I wonder have i become emotionally weaker or just that my tear gland is on the active site.


silence and withdrawn.





Everyone is tired holding on to the past. I am too.
but its lots of unanswered doubts stopping me from playing the cool.
since when has ignoring it been the best way to end it?
People dont understand me. And i dont understand my mind cause its too fickled.
Apparently, drawing the line is easy for you.
If that is what you want it to be, I guess time will eventually rub it off totally.



For once, i dislike that smirk on her on that day. and how she treated me in the sequnce of past event really made me wonder if she was ever sincere in helping in the past.
Its scary cause now i feel like i've been a fool.
Stop being an angel in front of everyone. You know what you have been doing.


Perhaps its true that not every being is nice after all.
Gone are my naive thinking.






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