I learn to play it simplified.

You cannot be anything you want to be - but you can be a lot more of who you already are.


Friday, December 15, 2006

entries
arrggh.
this is the fourth time tat i've erase and retype my entry.

i wan to blog.
but there seems to be too much to sae.
all thks to my com.
its givin mi its attitude again.
refusin to cooperate with mi.
n now
the thing is
shld this entry be a positive or negative one?

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once again
tears defy me

frm bishan to khatib.
i dun like being alone in that train.
the feeling of staring blankly out of window
drownin with black and white images
made me a fool.

was it me being the coward or the prideful one?

do u see e wounded soldier tats wavin the white flag high?
keepin it at times. i'm fightin my pride.

cf was enuf to tel mi strongly tat
i miss u. i stil do. do u?
all i need is assurance.
but i guess. its back to avoidance once again.

i'm having thots to leave e organisation soon.
i'm having trouble devoting with all mi heart.
it still hurts at those sight n my thoughts running madly around.
i'm seeking escapism.

n to my twin or not twin.
u are making mi so so confused at times.
lets jus keep our relationship the way it is now.
i still sincerely wish u wel n happy.

health deteriorates real bad for the past week.
frm diarrhoea.
to reali bad headaches.
and to gastric prob which i haf no clue for.
the worse is my constant out of breath.
have you eva gasp for air?


n to u. i simply dun understand wats so hard jus to be sensible?
if u cant bring smiles at least dun bring frowns to these other peeps i love.
although i dun reali noe wats reali gg on.
its frustrating to hear frm others bout stuff u shldnt do.

everything made it a chore to grow up.
simplicity lies in childhood days.
peace out.
but i noe i still loves u.

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have been a regular swimmer eva since outing with shitty four at sentosa.
so.
i'm an idiot that dint know i can swim.
heh.

prom was good.
i had fun dolling up.
u wun believe how my hair style turn out to be.
ha ha ha.

"wat can i do to make u love mi? "

i enjoyed shopping with u.
tired but JOY n FUN speaks louder.
appreciate your presence.
love my pretty flowers.

i learn that prom was all bout dressing up, shopping, photos taking and having a feast.

interview was yester.
n i'm all geared up for work nxt week.
wee~
i badly need cash.

independence speaks.

i'm all into my babygirl.

smp
love tingz






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