"I am a clown and my job is to entertain ppl and bring smile to ppl face. But nobody has ever wondered whether a clown is happy. Ppl always thought that clown can be self entertain. Deep in my heart, i really feel there is nothing that is worth for me to laugh. However, i will continue to be a clown as i know that if i stop being a clown, i will probably lose all my friends." This is said by a friend who claims that she is a clown. I always thought that this friend has a lot of friends who will care for her so i didn't worry about her much, but it seems like she is not what she looks like. She once has a very close friend(Y) who understand her perfectly well but a lot of obstacles seems to be breaking their friendship. Her close friend(Y) has another close friend(Z) now and seems to neglect this so called "clown friend". This Z keep hinting my "clown friend" she is reductant. Being guilty and sick of her so called theory, this "clown friend" decides to sacrifice herself. She decided to let Y and Z be together and she will stand behind everyone else alone. When she is sad, she wanted to talk to X, but she saw Y and Z together talking happily so she decided not to interrupt. As time goes by, this "clown friend" don dare to speak to Y anymore and Y seems to be more happy with other ppl. This "clown friend" think this is enough as the main aim of clown is to make everyone happy and she seems to succeed. Everyone will be happy if she sacrifice. This "clown friend" sang me a song "shou hou" by 5566. The meaning of the song is something like this: When u are happy, don come and look for me, bring ur happiness and leave with someone else as i know ur happiness does not belong to me . When u are unhappy, pls come and look for me, i will try my best to clear ur unhappiness and u must know that i will always be the one secretly "shou hou" u This is sum words that my "clown friend" wanted to tell her friend Y. This is a story from my "clown friend". From a cheerful, and friendly person to a person who now prefer and had no choice but to stand behind everyone else. Perhaps Y has hurt this friend deeply. Btw this clown friend has made a conclusion to this story " Never ever give attitude to a clown who has has tried her best to cheer u up "

said by a clown who intend to post on her blog after A level.