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You cannot be anything you want to be - but you can be a lot more of who you already are.

Friday, January 13, 2006

sad dae in sch
its a sad dae in sch..

felt damn lousy..

i jus cant help feeling pissed with myself..

the tutorials..
the tutor..
the test..
wats wrong with mi..

no one left ta blame but mi myself n i..

i need sum time alone..
i cant help it but ta leave sch asap..
i dun lyt peeps ta comfort mi..
coz when they do..
tears will jus roll..

i dun lyt frenx ta see mi in tat state..
i'll feel dumb.. crying over silly things..
its not okie to cry.. at least..
not in front of so mani peeps..
n create a big hoo hah..

tats jus mi..

but i wish sumone will jus gif mi a hug..
or jus stay bside mi.. quietly.. lending mi a shoulder when i need..

sarah saw mi at the bus stop..
a hug i got..
n i knew it..
i teared..

i was trying so hard..
to keep it jus there..
the tears where it belong..
not to wet my cheeks..
damn..

i realise i wasnt as strong as b4..
pulling back tears isnt as easy as b4..

but i got up twice as fast..
still able to put up a strong front bhind msges n when the issue isnt mention..

wateva it ish..

i'm letting it go..

guys.. reali appreciate ya msges..
it made mi feel much better.. =)
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my granddad ish in hospital..
think gonna visit him tomo..

n i'm glad..
my dear pearly ish feeling sho much better..






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