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Monday, July 11, 2005

scReweD (n xinz arhx..)
sCrewEd (n xinz arhx..)

its not a pleasant dae for mi todae.. was feeling damn bad in the afternoon..
was in a lousy mood till i met clor n yan around evening..
when i told myself tat i mus cheer up.. since clor's leaving for holland le..
mus smile..

i was screwed in sch.. very screwed..
took back my results le..
i guess my cgtutor my dad n mum ish damn disappointed wif mi..
first person i told.. ish mi dad..
i think i haf the best dad in the world..
he's alws tat understanding.. which made mi feel even worst..
broke mi promise to miss poh..
screwed sia..
dun dare to look at her at all..
hesitated alot to tell mi mum..
she's gonna be vy disappointed wif mi..
worst still..
upsetting her..
sigh..

sth tat i told myself..
tis ish gonna be the first n the last wif such grades..
gonna work doubly hard..

send clor off at the airport..
though i alws deny.. but i'm gonna miss her alot..
she's off to holland for sum band compeitition..
after going through sho much this few daes..
do hope she enjoy herself at holland for the nxt two weeks..
n do take care ger..
*muackx*

sum of her classmates came to send her off too..
i think her class quite cool bax..
perhaps jus these few frenx of hers..
the hugs n the kisses..
find these frens of hers vy sweet for their gesture of misses n care..

met a few of such peeps in my class..
diff sec sch do haf different culture.. bringin up diff peeps..

sending clor off reminded mi of sendin xinz off the other time..
it was the same terminal..
n it was at nite..
n i was wearing my sch u..

xinz arhx.. ya tag..
i'm alws tingz..
sumone tat alws treasure u as a pal..
n alws treat u as one..
its jus tat its no longer sec sch le..
its jus tat time dun return..
i miss those daes too.. badly..
espec sec two..
when we are sho close n dependent on each other..
when all i had ish u guys.. peeps tat i noe i can alws depend on..
n when all u had ish us bax..
when we are all sho innocent.. growing up together.. understandin n giving in ta each other..
solving problems.. havin fun.. being crazy(remember?) together..
notice the word "together"?
those daes are special..
did shomani stuff together..
shared shomani memories..
its jus special.. coz the memories only involve us..
its tough now..
its jus no longer the same..
new peeps entered our life..
n we haf ta divide our time..
we jus no longer spend as much time wif each other..
my heart felt the bitterness too my dear ger..
the closeness.. its jus not the same lyt the past..
its no longer physical.. when we getta see each other almost everydae..
n our precious time.. jus spending only wif each other..
but wat kept mi going ish tat i noe we are still best of pals..
we still shared the same memories..
memories tat only we noe..
unique.. coz its OURS..
i alws remember the song u sang..
we sang..
espec this..

as we go on.. we remember..
all the time we.. had together..
n as our life change.. cum wateva...
we'll still be.. frenx foreva..

i meant it.. do u..
i do miss ya guys alot ya noe..
dun tag mi lyt a stranger sia..
i'll feel sad dex..
though in the past.. i felt sho b4 too...
luv ya ger..
alotx






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